TMEPODCAST

Where I’ve Been, Where I Am, and How I’m Finding My Way Back

This week’s solo episode of Things I’ve Never Said Out Loud was one of the most personal I’ve recorded so far. I’ve always felt deeply connected to this podcast and what it’s becoming, but this time, I wanted to go even deeper.

I wrote down some questions — things I’ve been wanting to say out loud but haven’t — and I finally gave myself the space to share them. I felt safe to do this because these are the same conversations I have with my closest friends, and I know I’m not the only one who’s been through them. Maybe you’ll relate, maybe you’ve gone through something similar, or maybe it will give you a new perspective.

Silent Suffering & Learning to Speak Up

For most of my life, I’ve been what I call a “silent sufferer.” I tend to keep my struggles to myself out of fear of being too much for people, draining the energy in the room, or burdening someone else. But the truth is — keeping everything bottled up isn’t noble, it’s harmful.

When you let thoughts sit and spiral in your mind, they can grow into something much bigger than they are. You start to fixate, your perspective narrows, and suddenly it feels like a catastrophe. And that doesn’t just stay in your head — your body starts to feel it too. Chronic stress can show up as fatigue, illness, anxiety, or even depression.

I’m learning that speaking up and asking for what you need is a gift — to yourself and to others. And I want to embody that more, even if it doesn’t come naturally.

The Lows, the Lessons, and the Changes

In this episode, I open up about where I’ve been mentally, the lows I’ve experienced, and what’s been helping me climb back up. I also talk about dating, the gap between where I thought I’d be by now and where I am, and what my 20s taught me.

Two main things have helped me shift out of chronic anxiety and depression:

1. Daily walks – At least 10,000 steps a day, but if I hit 20,000? I’m over the moon. Walking completely changes my brain chemistry and helps me feel grounded and clear.
2. To Be Magnetic’s “Expanded” podcast & Deep Imaginings – These guided, binaural beat visualizations have been a game-changer. Combined with walking, surrounding myself with great people, and getting clear on my values and purpose, they’ve helped me slowly feel better and more aligned.

It hasn’t been an overnight transformation. It’s been slow and intentional. But I can feel the difference.

Why This Episode Matters to Me

Hosting this podcast has given me the privilege of hearing other people’s vulnerable stories. It’s only fair — and necessary — that I share mine too. This episode is my way of meeting my listeners where they’ve met me, with honesty, openness, and trust.

If you’ve ever felt like you had to keep it all inside, or if you’re working your way back from a hard season, I hope you find something here that reminds you you’re not alone.

And if you’re looking for a supportive tool, I can’t recommend To Be Magnetic enough. Pair it with daily movement and see where it takes you.

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